Inner-Musings and Mis-Adventures: The jury is in...

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This blog is an on-going work in progress, just like its creator. The names have been changed to protect the innocent, and the not-so-innocent. The events portrayed are as true and accurate as my perspective and memory allows, and are subject to change without further notice in the future. You will not find any Pay Per Post on my blog... No advertising. No peddling of anything other than my personal thoughts, opinions, and experiences... If you are reading my words it is because you are choosing to share a birds-eye view into my playground, not because I am pounding down your door asking to come in out the elements uninvited. With all of that out of the way, I really am glad you are here…

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

The jury is in...

The Boyfriend's Mother does NOT like me... And for reasons that I was not expecting at all...

I am hurt. and angry. (But I know that in a few days, that will pass...) More than anything, I am upset... (You know that pit of the stomach kind of twisting pain that eats at you? Yeah... It's that...)

And more than all of that, I feel badly for the Boyfriend...

Which is why this is a very different Blog than I originally wrote... Full of hurt and anger and questions... But in the end, it would only hurt the Boyfriend... And that is the last thing that I want to do... So I hit the delete button until all of the words were gone, and started again...

What I have is this...

I am who I am...
I had, and still have, the best of intentions...
I tried, but I remained true to myself... No matter what...
I feel badly about how it turned out... But I really gave it my all...
I am hurting and upset...
But I WILL get over it... And past it...
And then I will try again...
This is important...
I really, really love this man...
And I want him to be happy... Because that makes me happy...
And THAT is important...

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Wednesday, July 25, 2007

The jury is in...

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